Women of influence

This weekend I was able to meet on of the women that influences me along with thousands of other girls and women throughout the world. Nancy Alcorn is an amazing woman of faith that heard God speaking to her about helping young women who were hurting and sharing God's love with them. Nancy founded Mercy Ministries. Please take a moment and look up this ministry at www.mercyministries.com. Research Nancy's testimony. She is amazing and Daniel and I are proud to be partners with her.

It's been a long time; I shouldn't have left you...

As I sit here typing out this blog, I smile because I know that as soon as Daniel reads that title he is going to know how to finish the sentence. It's another one of our many inside jokes. Anyways, I shouldn't have left you so long without an update on life at the Perry Playground. I realize its been months since I last updated my blog, and as always its because life happened.

Let's see, where to start....

My last post was at the end of July. At that point I was struggling with my role as a wife. I was utterly discouraged about what seemed to be the constant arguing that was taking place with Daniel and I. We were arguing over the dumbest things, and needless to say I wasn't feeling too "super wifey for lifey." Over the month of August Daniel and I talked with our mentors and started taking a course on marriage...and each other. George recommended a few books for Daniel to study, and Renee did the same for me. She gave me The Power of a Praying Wife, and Fascinating Womanhood. I'm ashamed to admit that I'm still not through either of these books, because again life got in the way, I've been lazy, and frankly...those books make me very angry when I read them. The reason they make me angry are:

1. they are written from a 1950's housewife mentality (which flies in the face of every ounce of independence I have)

2. they reveal areas about my marriage that I have to fix...not Daniel...ME! 

 So long story short, I read a little and throw the book, pick it up again, read a little more, throw it again....you get the drift. On a good note though, our marriage is getting back on track and we are both learning to communicate better.

So, that brings me to late August, early September. School started back for Daniel again, this time with all his classes being online. School started back for me as well, with a fresh group of Freshman in my LEAP group. We are known as "Starr and the Giant Peaches." I am having so much fun with this group of students and they continually stretch me and help me to become a better instructor. Daniel has decided that since he is taking online classes this fall, then he will have time to pursue substitute teaching in the Metro school system. He has completed all the paperwork and background check and all that jazz...and is waiting patiently for the orientation. I think he is going to be an amazing teacher and that the students will absolutely love him.

Work has been pretty crazy the past couple of months and I have been working ALOT! But we did have a chance to slip in a couple of mini vacations with family this late summer/early fall. We were able to go camping with the Perry's in Missouri, and we celebrated Grandma Perry's 80th birthday in Indiana in September. We are planning a trip to Grandma Foster's cabin in Virginia with my parents and Kyle and Micha at the end of October. I'm looking forward to the quiet mountains and cool crisp air.

That pretty much sums up our beginning of Fall, and we eagerly anticipate the upcoming holidays. Be looking out for my next blog about the joys of house hunting! Blessings, and check out my photos on Facebook from our mini vacations this year.

Someone Worth Dying For

Have you ever had one of those days where you feel completely and utterly lost, broken, empty. Well today is one of those days for me. One of those days where I just want to curl up in my bed, and sleep...all day. Some may call it depression, and maybe it is. All I know is that when I was driving to work today, I heard this song and it made me cry.

Someone Worth Dying For

You might be the wife, waiting up at night
You might be the man, struggling to provide
feeling like it's hopeless
Maybe you're the son who chose a broken road
Maybe you're the girl thinking you'll end up alone
Praying God can you hear me?
Oh, God are you listening?

Am I more than flesh and bone?
Am I really something beautiful?
Yeah, I want to believe, I want to believe that
I'm not just some wandering soul
That you don't see and you don't know
Yeah, I want to believe, Jesus help me believe
That I am someone worth dying for

I know you've heard the truth that God has set you free
But you think you're the one that grace could never reach

So you just keep asking, Oh, what everybody's asking

Your worth it, you can't earn it
Yeah, the cross has proven,
That you're sacred and blameless.
Your life has purpose!

You are more than flesh and bone
Can't you see you're something beautiful
Yeah, you gotta believe, you gotta believe
He wants you to see, He wants you to see that
You're not just some wandering soul
That can't be seen and can't be known
You gotta believe, you gotta believe
That you are someone worth dying for

You're someone worth dying for
Someone worth dying for

Times of Transition

Change is hard.

This past week has been a roller coaster of emotions and unfortunately, most of them have been stressful, hurtful, and sad. Our department got news last Tuesday of who would be staying at the school, and who would be going. Ultimately, 2/3 of our close-knit work family would be seeking employment elsewhere. That is a really hard pill to swallow, for everyone.

Over the past five years in this role, I have grown to view this team as a family, dysfunctional a lot of the time, but family none-the-less. It is going to be very difficult to wrap my head around working here without them. Each one brought something to the table that was valuable and unique. It's a very strange sensation to be grieving over this situation, but that's reality.

I think I have moved past the disbelief stage, and the anger stage. I think I'm in the "oh my goodness, what are we going to do now!!??!!" stage. I cried my first set of tears over this today at our last luncheon together. It is all starting to sink in as people are packing their offices into small boxes and loading up their cars. Next week is going to be eerily quiet around here. The sad kind of quiet. The lonely kind of quiet.

Through all of this transition, I am constantly reminded that God has a plan for each and every one of us, no matter what obstacles come into our paths. He will see us all through. Continue to pray for me and for my co-workers as we all face a situation that is new to us and hard on every level.

Blessings

We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

‘Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

‘Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home,
It's not our home

‘Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise

~Laura Story

These past few weeks have become ever increasingly stressful as we approach transition at work and uncertainty of the future. I am leaning on God and trusting his guidance and wisdom in my decision-making processes. I trust that He will provide for my every need, but I would be lying if I said it has been easy and doubt-free. I heard this song this morning on the radio and it really spoke to me. It reminds me that God never promised that everything would be easy in our lives. It also reminds me of this passage from Isaiah

When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you. ~Isaiah 43:2

 The passage doesn't say IF you go through deep waters, but WHEN. God tells us that our lives will not always be easy and that we will face difficulties and hard decisions. There is also a promise in that statement: I WILL BE WITH YOU! That gives me peace about all that is going on in my life right now. I am thankful for the trials because they help me to grow into a stronger woman, who is more and more trusting of her God.

The Road Not Taken

 The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost 

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth.

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same.

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

I came across this poem this morning and although I've heard and read it hundreds of times, it hit me more this morning. I realize that it is ever increasingly applying to my life.  Daniel and I are moving into a new month after having one of the best months in our business to date. We are so excited for the growth not only in our business, but in ourselves over the past couple of months. Its always been a struggle for us to come to terms with friends and family who are not supportive of, or do not understand our venture, but we will keep pressing on because we have a vision of what our future will be...and its not the road most traveled. 

I have been working on having high expectations for people, our business, and our life in general. There has been a lot of extra stress with work situations this past couple of months, and change is coming. I have been working on preparing myself for the changes ahead and keeping my attitude and expectations in check. I will leave you with a quote that really speaks to me every time I start to get worried.

In every adversity there lies a seed of equal or greater benefit for those who have a positive mental attitude.

Attitude is Everything

Its been a while, almost a month since my last update. I apologize for neglecting to keep those who read this informed of our lives. Not a whole lot has changed in the month of March that bode an entire blog to get you "up to speed." We decided to stop doing P90X for now. I guess we weren't ready for the commitment that came along with working out 6 days a week for an hour.

In other news, we found out more details concerning the job restructure and honestly, we still dont know much of anything. We are all in a state of waiting to see what will take place over the next couple of weeks, and months. My first instinct was to worry, but I was quickly reminded that God is in control and what good will worrying do for me? I have had to make a conscience decision to control my attitude this month. With all the uncertainty at work, it is really easy to fall into a negative frame of mind and get sucked into feeling sad and sorry for myself. I refuse to do that.

I am so blessed to be surrounded by friends who always have a positive mental attitude about life and circumstances. Its really hard to throw pity parties when they are around. I really appreciate that. It has also been important for me to keep reading and listening to mentors in my life who remind me that attitude is everything (great book by that title)! Here are a few quotes that have really spoken to me this month and have encouraged me to control my thoughts and speak life into people and circumstances.

“We choose what attitudes we have right now. And it's a continuing choice.”

- John Maxwell

“Life is 10% of what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it.”

- John Maxwell

Oh, my friend, it's not what they take away from you that counts.  It's what you do with what you have left.  ~Hubert Humphrey

Every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day.  

~Author Unknown

If you don't like something change it; if you can't change it, change the way you think about it.  

~Mary Engelbreit

There are no menial jobs, only menial attitudes.  

~William J. Bennett, The Book of Virtues

The greatest discovery of my generation is that a human being can alter his life by altering his attitudes.  ~William James